There are a lot of things I want to do.
I want to find myself a job and actually earn some money. I want to learn to speak Spanish and Korean, attend a class or so. I want to publish a book for PHR romance and try to find out if I may have a future in it. I want to be a Red Cross Emergency Medical Team volunteer and undergo training. I want to publish more stories for fanfiction.net. I want to lose weight and find "me". Most of all, I want to start reading ahead and review for my future board exam...
...and Vitales Signa is not a part of my plans anymore.
I guess it just bored me to death. There really is a certain eerie in Chinese Gen that makes me feel like I don't belong and I just can't find a place anywhere there for me. I don't know, it's just that I'm considering quitting and leaving the college publication.
I don't know.
Monday, January 28, 2008
Monday, January 21, 2008
1st Day at Female Charity Ward
I know I should start this entry with the beginning of my day but I'm gonna jump off right at what's been bothering me. I freakin' forgot one important meeting with Princess Leasl online. How could I be so damn stupid?
Well, anyway my day started off quite weird. I bathed in alcohol, as in isoporphyl alcohol. My head--no, not my mind but my head as in scalp---has been bugging me. It's itchy. I don't know what irritated it but I think it wasn't the recently discovered growth of lice. I don't know where I got it or from whom its just that I hate lice. I got to do something to stop their growth.
Again---duty: okay, what did we do today? We had an orientation and we were dismissed quite early. And also, a very late news reached me: Dean Iris Chua-So's husband had a vehicular accident 2 weeks ago [or so I've heard]. He's in Neuro-ICU but news has it that he's stable and he's ready for transfer to a private room. I really, really wish he'll be ok. The Dean must be under so much stress lately. I wish she'll get through it as gracefully as she always did. Her family's health will be included in my prayers.
Another thing, Ms. Limjoco passed by Female Charity Ward this morning. She said something about talking to Dean So about our "Octoberian Dream". I wish to graduate on October, with that I'm just 1 semester late from my batchmates. Yasmin, Rica and Iza will graduate this March or April and will take the nursing board exam on June. I wish they'll pass it. I also wish that I will.
Of course, the "Rivera Incident" talk happened again. It has to happen. That's how Lyks, Offie and me deal with it. Alyanna did not come to the area, I wonder what had gotten into her that she missed it. I hope she'll come by tomorrow.
Well, anyway my day started off quite weird. I bathed in alcohol, as in isoporphyl alcohol. My head--no, not my mind but my head as in scalp---has been bugging me. It's itchy. I don't know what irritated it but I think it wasn't the recently discovered growth of lice. I don't know where I got it or from whom its just that I hate lice. I got to do something to stop their growth.
Again---duty: okay, what did we do today? We had an orientation and we were dismissed quite early. And also, a very late news reached me: Dean Iris Chua-So's husband had a vehicular accident 2 weeks ago [or so I've heard]. He's in Neuro-ICU but news has it that he's stable and he's ready for transfer to a private room. I really, really wish he'll be ok. The Dean must be under so much stress lately. I wish she'll get through it as gracefully as she always did. Her family's health will be included in my prayers.
Another thing, Ms. Limjoco passed by Female Charity Ward this morning. She said something about talking to Dean So about our "Octoberian Dream". I wish to graduate on October, with that I'm just 1 semester late from my batchmates. Yasmin, Rica and Iza will graduate this March or April and will take the nursing board exam on June. I wish they'll pass it. I also wish that I will.
Of course, the "Rivera Incident" talk happened again. It has to happen. That's how Lyks, Offie and me deal with it. Alyanna did not come to the area, I wonder what had gotten into her that she missed it. I hope she'll come by tomorrow.
Sunday, January 20, 2008
The Night Before My 1st day of CGHMC Duty for this Year 2008...
Still traumatized by the damned "Rivera Incident", I can't seem to find sleep. Tomorrow is my first Chinese General Hospital Medical Center [CGHMC] duty for this year after a long time. I think in the inside I am a little anxious---still shaking with fear and hatred because of what happened during my case presentation with Rivera months ago. He's not human. He's a monster and he's still chasing after me during my sleep.
Ms. Limjoco confirmed that I'm going to have a Repeat Rotation [RR] on March with him again as my clinical instructor [CI] at N5. And regardless of how I want to contain my emotions about the thought of him looking over my shoulders, it still brings a certain pang of pain and insult.
While I'm shuddering in pain, solitude and hate here in my lonely room, the thought of the Vitales Signa, our college newspaper in which I assume the position of editor-in-chief, first semester issue took another slot in my anxiety block. I swear to finish it this week. I'll just let these 3 days of hospital duty this week pass smoothly and on Thursday, I swear I'll have it ready for publishing in Mr. Malvas' hands.
Before I end this entry for today, let me finish it with me making a mental note for myself that I got to start re-writing my editorial column named "Vox". I'll write there something about what happened and my thoughts about my duty in N5. I will entitle it "Fallen Hero".
Ms. Limjoco confirmed that I'm going to have a Repeat Rotation [RR] on March with him again as my clinical instructor [CI] at N5. And regardless of how I want to contain my emotions about the thought of him looking over my shoulders, it still brings a certain pang of pain and insult.
While I'm shuddering in pain, solitude and hate here in my lonely room, the thought of the Vitales Signa, our college newspaper in which I assume the position of editor-in-chief, first semester issue took another slot in my anxiety block. I swear to finish it this week. I'll just let these 3 days of hospital duty this week pass smoothly and on Thursday, I swear I'll have it ready for publishing in Mr. Malvas' hands.
Before I end this entry for today, let me finish it with me making a mental note for myself that I got to start re-writing my editorial column named "Vox". I'll write there something about what happened and my thoughts about my duty in N5. I will entitle it "Fallen Hero".
Wednesday, January 2, 2008
Dealing with Stress
Researched by Mariel Liza Raymundo
Written by Chelle Asuncion
Everyday we are exposed to different stressors. They truly make us ill and cause many health problems. From mere sleeplessness to severe heart attacks up to digestive problems, stress makes an essential contributing factor. However, a research presented at the 115th Annual Convention of the American Psychological Association by the University of Hawaii recently found evidence ti suggest that people who cope with stress well may have higher HDL “good” cholesterol levels than people who deals poorly with stress. Interestingly, subjects who dealt well with their stress did not show any decrease in LDL “bad” cholesterol level.
Important caveats to this discovery are that the subjects of the test were all men, mostly white and over 50 years old. Nonetheless, the findings showed an interesting relationship between cholesterol and stress that is sure to be the basis of future studies.
Failure, loss and sudden changes are the typical stressors we encounter. These stressors happen uncontrollably therefore learning to manage them is the utmost part. Identifying these stressors makes a significant step toward managing them.
There are numerous positive ways of coping with stress. Similarly there are also numerous negative ways. Finding yourself indulging to alcohol, drugs or certain foods could give you an instant feeling far from being stressed yet the fact that the stressor is still present and unchanged. The likelihood that it may just get worse might not be appealing in the end. Relaxation, exercise and communication are just few of the simple strategies of coping with stress.
Here are some constructive coping mechanisms that will help you battle stress:
Relax. Relaxation promotes clear thinking. One simple technique is to sit in a quiet room and picture yourself in a peaceful place like walking in the shore or breathing fresh air in a mountain peak, this method is known as Guided Imagery. Listening to a calm music is also a common way to relax. Other formal means are meditation and breathing exercises. If you have the rime, it will be helpful for you to engage to training programs of yoga or any other sports where you can provide yourself the time needed to revitalize your mind.
Exercise. Regular exercise releases endorphins which have stress-fighting properties. Simple stretching after an hour of heavy work creates the same comfort of waking up in a lovely sunny day. Experts suggest that 20 minutes of exercise thrice a week could be an effective stress reducer.
Communicate. Just like a radio program always say: Letting it out could make a big difference. Communication is one of the most effective ways to resolve a stressor. Either a problem was faced squarely and a relief was gained; or leave it as it is to let it boggle your mind endlessly. Confiding to a family member or to a friend soothes greatly. Seeking professional counseling or joining a support group may also be helpful. Journal or letter writing could also get your feelings out in the open and eventually release the kept uneasiness.
Written by Chelle Asuncion
Everyday we are exposed to different stressors. They truly make us ill and cause many health problems. From mere sleeplessness to severe heart attacks up to digestive problems, stress makes an essential contributing factor. However, a research presented at the 115th Annual Convention of the American Psychological Association by the University of Hawaii recently found evidence ti suggest that people who cope with stress well may have higher HDL “good” cholesterol levels than people who deals poorly with stress. Interestingly, subjects who dealt well with their stress did not show any decrease in LDL “bad” cholesterol level.
Important caveats to this discovery are that the subjects of the test were all men, mostly white and over 50 years old. Nonetheless, the findings showed an interesting relationship between cholesterol and stress that is sure to be the basis of future studies.
Failure, loss and sudden changes are the typical stressors we encounter. These stressors happen uncontrollably therefore learning to manage them is the utmost part. Identifying these stressors makes a significant step toward managing them.
There are numerous positive ways of coping with stress. Similarly there are also numerous negative ways. Finding yourself indulging to alcohol, drugs or certain foods could give you an instant feeling far from being stressed yet the fact that the stressor is still present and unchanged. The likelihood that it may just get worse might not be appealing in the end. Relaxation, exercise and communication are just few of the simple strategies of coping with stress.
Here are some constructive coping mechanisms that will help you battle stress:
Relax. Relaxation promotes clear thinking. One simple technique is to sit in a quiet room and picture yourself in a peaceful place like walking in the shore or breathing fresh air in a mountain peak, this method is known as Guided Imagery. Listening to a calm music is also a common way to relax. Other formal means are meditation and breathing exercises. If you have the rime, it will be helpful for you to engage to training programs of yoga or any other sports where you can provide yourself the time needed to revitalize your mind.
Exercise. Regular exercise releases endorphins which have stress-fighting properties. Simple stretching after an hour of heavy work creates the same comfort of waking up in a lovely sunny day. Experts suggest that 20 minutes of exercise thrice a week could be an effective stress reducer.
Communicate. Just like a radio program always say: Letting it out could make a big difference. Communication is one of the most effective ways to resolve a stressor. Either a problem was faced squarely and a relief was gained; or leave it as it is to let it boggle your mind endlessly. Confiding to a family member or to a friend soothes greatly. Seeking professional counseling or joining a support group may also be helpful. Journal or letter writing could also get your feelings out in the open and eventually release the kept uneasiness.
Tuesday, January 1, 2008
Still-Life Painting
Still-Life Painting
By Mariel Liza Matias-Raymundo
Things not moving,
Things unrelenting,
Things not mending,
I stood.
I posed.
The ceiling then moved, rocked.
I fell to the floor.
Bam, it sounds.
Pain, it feels.
Solitude, it says.
Hell, it seems.
I was angry, mad.
Why?
I am destroyed, devastated.
There?
I lay on the ground:
Stood upon
Knocked-off
I cried: no moan, no roar.
Only sobs,
So quiet
So restricted
So locked in the chest
Solely, I endure.
Grudgingly, I quarrel.
Fearfully, I fight.
Brevity, I cast.
Still:
I did not move.
I did not relent.
I did not mend.
I lay, unmoved.
I posed, untouched.
By Mariel Liza Matias-Raymundo
Things not moving,
Things unrelenting,
Things not mending,
I stood.
I posed.
The ceiling then moved, rocked.
I fell to the floor.
Bam, it sounds.
Pain, it feels.
Solitude, it says.
Hell, it seems.
I was angry, mad.
Why?
I am destroyed, devastated.
There?
I lay on the ground:
Stood upon
Knocked-off
I cried: no moan, no roar.
Only sobs,
So quiet
So restricted
So locked in the chest
Solely, I endure.
Grudgingly, I quarrel.
Fearfully, I fight.
Brevity, I cast.
Still:
I did not move.
I did not relent.
I did not mend.
I lay, unmoved.
I posed, untouched.
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