Hello Kitty and Dear Daniel~~~ the 1vs100 Retrospection Entry

Naku, nakakainis----ba't ako rin di ko alam yun? Buti pa si Hello Kitty may BF... Sayang, kala ko tataas pa ang "high" ko last Saturday habang nanonood kay Ms. Chin sa 1 vs. 100, pero as the old adage goes "all is well, that ends well" nang sa wakas ay natapos rin ang kung ilang minuto ng kakulitan ni Corazon on a Saturday show and timeslot.

Ang isa pang nakakatawa ay ang isang buong araw ng adventure ko ng pakikibaka para sa karapatang makapanood ng tv. Pasaway kasi si Mommy, nanonood siya ng "Kakasa ka ba sa Grade 5?" at nagagalit sa akin kapag nililipat ko sa "Volta"---pano kasi baka mag-umpisa ang 1 vs. 100 na isang linggo ko ring inantay at inisip sa bawat gabi. Waaaaaaahhahaa----adik talaga.

Syempre, I should not forget to mention that that Saturday, Birthday din ni Mommy. So you could just imagine how hard I had to negotiate for a "lunch out" instead of a "dinner out".

Well, while watching "Rhodora" survive the "Ten Picks", si Mommy na bandang huli ay napilitan manood ng gusto kong panoorin ay wala nang tigil sa kakatawa sa mga pinaggagagawa at pinagsasasabi ni Ms. Chin Chin Gutierrez at Edu Manzano. To think, halos tulugan ni Mommy ang umpisa dahil ayaw talagang manood---aba't uubra ba siya sa akin? Waaaaaahhhahahahaaaaa---evil laugh .

Yun lang, share ko lang po. BTW, alam na rin ni Mommy ang pangalan ng tatay ni John Lloyd as mentioned sa tula ni Ria. Hahhaaaaaaa----imagine that. Na-high nga si Mommy e, up until Sunday natatawa pa rin siya.

P.S.: Sabi ko na nga ba muntik na rin siya sa DDR e... hehe, nakakatuwa rin ang mob in that episode. Ang gulo nila, .

Charles, my Charles.

I miss Charles. I went through my multpily account and saw his old picture. I love this kid. I met him at RSCC when we had our duty there.






[Guess what? I am at this time listening to a Les Miserables song that goes: "He is young, he's afraid. Let him rest, heaven blessed. Bring him home, bring him home, bring him home..." Sad song.]


Sana sinundo na siya ng family niya. It's a very painful thought to know that his own family abandoned him ang left him there. I wish they would make up for the lost time and the abandonment will not hurt him as a human being. I wish he'd heal. I wish he'd live a good life.

CODA: Ang Catalonan

I don’t belong here. I don’t belong to deadlines and caged structures. I don’t fit well in a box; such makes it difficult for me to breathe. I thought so before I could survive here but I was wrong. I used to want this, but again I was wrong. I was dead wrong.

I belong to the Earth---to the wind that tussles my hair for eternal ownership; to the sun that bathes my hidden glory with visual contours; to the sky that nestles me in the womb of a Higher Being.

I am a priestess; a slave of the Mother, a channel of God, an advocate of art and a lover of words. I may seem worthless but I am not. I may not excel in means calculated by numerical values, but I will make a position for my self in this world.

But first things first, I don’t belong here.

I am owned by something else.

Picture at Ortho

Kakalat-kalat kasi ang picture na 'to sa ibabaw ng computer table ko, sabi ko ilalagay ko sa blog. Anyway, eto na siya. from Left to right: Lyks, Offie--- si Ma'm [sorry, miserable talaga ako sa pagtanda ng mga names]---ako at si Petil.

Ayan, saya di ba. Bago yan magdemo ng BST.

Vitales Signa, a thought of quitting

There are a lot of things I want to do.

I want to find myself a job and actually earn some money. I want to learn to speak Spanish and Korean, attend a class or so. I want to publish a book for PHR romance and try to find out if I may have a future in it. I want to be a Red Cross Emergency Medical Team volunteer and undergo training. I want to publish more stories for fanfiction.net. I want to lose weight and find "me". Most of all, I want to start reading ahead and review for my future board exam...

...and Vitales Signa is not a part of my plans anymore.

I guess it just bored me to death. There really is a certain eerie in Chinese Gen that makes me feel like I don't belong and I just can't find a place anywhere there for me. I don't know, it's just that I'm considering quitting and leaving the college publication.

I don't know.

1st Day at Female Charity Ward

I know I should start this entry with the beginning of my day but I'm gonna jump off right at what's been bothering me. I freakin' forgot one important meeting with Princess Leasl online. How could I be so damn stupid?

Well, anyway my day started off quite weird. I bathed in alcohol, as in isoporphyl alcohol. My head--no, not my mind but my head as in scalp---has been bugging me. It's itchy. I don't know what irritated it but I think it wasn't the recently discovered growth of lice. I don't know where I got it or from whom its just that I hate lice. I got to do something to stop their growth.

Again---duty: okay, what did we do today? We had an orientation and we were dismissed quite early. And also, a very late news reached me: Dean Iris Chua-So's husband had a vehicular accident 2 weeks ago [or so I've heard]. He's in Neuro-ICU but news has it that he's stable and he's ready for transfer to a private room. I really, really wish he'll be ok. The Dean must be under so much stress lately. I wish she'll get through it as gracefully as she always did. Her family's health will be included in my prayers.

Another thing, Ms. Limjoco passed by Female Charity Ward this morning. She said something about talking to Dean So about our "Octoberian Dream". I wish to graduate on October, with that I'm just 1 semester late from my batchmates. Yasmin, Rica and Iza will graduate this March or April and will take the nursing board exam on June. I wish they'll pass it. I also wish that I will.

Of course, the "Rivera Incident" talk happened again. It has to happen. That's how Lyks, Offie and me deal with it. Alyanna did not come to the area, I wonder what had gotten into her that she missed it. I hope she'll come by tomorrow.

The Night Before My 1st day of CGHMC Duty for this Year 2008...

Still traumatized by the damned "Rivera Incident", I can't seem to find sleep. Tomorrow is my first Chinese General Hospital Medical Center [CGHMC] duty for this year after a long time. I think in the inside I am a little anxious---still shaking with fear and hatred because of what happened during my case presentation with Rivera months ago. He's not human. He's a monster and he's still chasing after me during my sleep.

Ms. Limjoco confirmed that I'm going to have a Repeat Rotation [RR] on March with him again as my clinical instructor [CI] at N5. And regardless of how I want to contain my emotions about the thought of him looking over my shoulders, it still brings a certain pang of pain and insult.

While I'm shuddering in pain, solitude and hate here in my lonely room, the thought of the Vitales Signa, our college newspaper in which I assume the position of editor-in-chief, first semester issue took another slot in my anxiety block. I swear to finish it this week. I'll just let these 3 days of hospital duty this week pass smoothly and on Thursday, I swear I'll have it ready for publishing in Mr. Malvas' hands.

Before I end this entry for today, let me finish it with me making a mental note for myself that I got to start re-writing my editorial column named "Vox". I'll write there something about what happened and my thoughts about my duty in N5. I will entitle it "Fallen Hero".